journal entry #66

hey guys, wassup. i am prettybored. right now i have a conflict of interests, a clash of interests, if you will. i actuallyt want to get my work done, but the ariels keep pulling me out of class to do things with me. i mean, i am the guy to talk to about everything and anything, for some reason i seem like the keeper of the secrets and all of the gossip. i can keep many secrets, i am willing to keep any secrets that peopl,e are willing to give me, i get high off of information from people. i cant say it isnt diffucult to hold the weight, but i want to hold the weight of others like i have never had myslef. i want to give people a place where they can dump their worries and live with their life. and eventually, they turn into the same thing for me, so i get it back over time. i just want to get close with everybody else. i wnt to know everything about everybody, and trust me, i ttakes effort. but rightr now, i need to forget about all of that and i need to slow down and do my work. i really do. after all of my work is done, then i will hang around with the people ilove. oh yeah, and about love. i have no clue what i want. i am confused. and i wanna fuck anything that moves, and in that area ariel is on top of my list ariel p. it sucks man i gotta wait till im eightteen, i dont think i can make it. its going to be the hardest thing ito do in my life but if i pull it off, it will be respected for a long time.