journal entry #62

hwy guys, another journal entry. right now i am not bored, i am actually haveing alot of fun. i wouldt mind living down here, hte sunlight is really great. i hope everything goes through and i can go to costa rica. i need to work alot more on that, but i dont think i will have time for that. i just hope other people can pick up my slack for the next quarter. if not, then i am screwed and i let everybody else down, but i hope it doesnt coem to that. man, this sucks, i wish i was better at doign work. i got to do it for myself, or else it wont work. i wish i did things soner. but i still have hope. if i work my ass off, i can do it, but i refuse to save my ass if it requires to do a strenuous amount of work on my vacation. if it requires that, then the school can fuck itself. im serious. but i think i can do it if i try hard enough. i want to pass, i cant let myself sink that low, and if i have to think of it that way, then so be it. the ends justify the means, i guess. i just dont want the burdes of all of it n my shoulders. i wouldnt be able to put up with it if i hadnt already for eight years. i think most other people would fold and cry under my pressure, and i admit i have done so many times. i have learned, and i can act in high stress situations now, so some good has come from it.