journal entry #64

i think i like to write, but a more pressing matter is on my mind right now. i think i love ariel. i truly do. i am going to talk about my feelings with her tomorrow, and i hope that her feeling might be mutual, if that, i hope she will at least listen to me. i really want to trust her, but i do not know her that well. i feel very scared to even date her, never mind tell me all of her emotions. i am pretty damn uncomfortable and i am as well scared. but i need to overcome my boundaries, and i need to grow, and i think i am ready for another realtionship too. i need ot do something, and i think hitchin upo with ariel will bring more purpose and responsibilty to my life. i hope that she would go out with me, but i do not want to until at least mondi wan ther to think about wha ti said and what she said. i also need time to think about what i think about what she said. i just dont trust her with me right now, but i am going to go against me will and do it anyways, the worst that could happen is that she could post that i said i love her everywhere, and even if she puts all of hte excruciating details in, all of the girls will at least think i am sweet and considerate, either that or they will think i am a pussy. i do not care, either way.