i hate valentines day 2

the reason i hate valentines day so much is because my last one was with my ex. this whole year is going to be a hard one, i can feel it, its going to kill. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, but right now, i dont feel too strong, very weak, in fact to my own misery and uselessness. i try to tell myself that i am useful, and that i am needed, but right now it i sreally hard. believe it or not, i still think about my ex girlfriend all of the time. i gave everything to her, i was very, very stupid, trusting her and knowing she was going to abuse it, see, i knew, and i did it anyways, i trusted her to know what she was talking about, i will never do that again. the true fact of the matter is that i want nothing to do with women for quite a while. nobody i knwo interests me, anyways. most the women i know are annoying, besides Ariel and Lina, they are fine with me, but besides that, most other girls annoy the liveing shit out of me, and oh yeah Katie, too, and Camblin, and Ally. None of them give me any trouble, but the rest are just too goddamn whiny and annoying, a little too crazy for me, just a little too silly and insecure, not that i am too sure of the last one, but the subject of women in general just gives me an earache, too much to think about.