i hate valentines day

i hate va;entines day, as you and undoubtedly tell. i really do not like it, it is one of the lonliest times in the world. if you are together with someone, it is a great time, trust me i know, but if you are not, whatever memories or everyhting is shoved in your face, not to mention that the people that are together take it to full advantage. i cant blame then for being happy, but it doesnt help me feel any better. i cannot wait until i finally feel good agin, i really cant, the last week has been hell. i believe taht i am very depressed, but i dont want to be this way, so i am trying to be better, or get better, or something, becaus ei do not want to live like this for the rest of my life. i think this journal thingummy helps me quite a bit, and thinkinhg that people actually read it, it is also comforting that i have another person to tell me what i can do to improve myself, or to support what i am writing. i dont know why i am suddenly and abruptly depressed, but i think i can fix it, i have before, so i am capable, i just have to convince myself i am worth the time, and that i truly can be fixed, and that i possibly can change the way people treat me, and that everybod ywould miss me, i need to be happy again.