My mom

I'm really worried about my mom. i really don't know what's going to happen to her. I now know the value of life and how easy your life can change one day to the next. I can't stop thinking about how lonely she must be, how much i want to be with her to take away her pain like i know she has done for me. All i can think about is how good mom has been to me and how bad i was to her as a kid. How easy it could be for me to be nice instead of a bitchy little punk to her. But i wasn't, and if she survives, i promise to be nicer to her. When i go to sleep at night now, all i can think about is how i want to be with her, just to make her feel a little better. Yeterday my sister and i went to visit her, and she was a wreck. By about 20 minutes after, i could see thatshe was feeling better by just being there. My mom has been in the hospital before, but this time it's scary, and i think i know why. It's because of her eyes. They're different. When i look into her eyes it's like shes really sick and i'm not sure if she's going to make it. Her eyes have no sparkle, and they are kind of dull, it's really scary. I though i cauld live without my mom fine, and i have been fine, but now that my mom might not be around anymore i'm really scared for mr and my mom. i don't to have to live without my mom. I want to hug her and hold her 'till all her pain goes away. i feel powerless to help her like shes helped me and that bothers me. i dont tkink everythings going to be alright.