journal entry #90

hey guys, htis is my first journal entry for a long, long time. and quite frankly, i still do not want to do them.right now i do not have a choice though. if i want to do as good as i can, then iu need to do these each and every day. i really do. and i think it is an effective enough tool right now, so i should keep on using it and making it better. dude, i feel like an asshole. my mother makes me feel like i have nothing to worr about, and that makes me worry in itself. my mom and my dad and are polar opposites. my dad is very goal-oriented and my mother is not at all. she is very free spirited and lets a higher spirit take control of most of her life. she believes if something happens that wasnt expected, then it was meant to be. she also... nvm i dont wnat to get into it.