journal entry #86 post exhibition

i feel like shit. i really do. i dont feel like i had accomplished anyhting. the main reason why my exhibition sucked so goddamn much is that i didnt prepare. if i had prepared, it would gone so much better. i feel like a fucking clown. i did this to myself. i put the nails on my own cross. i friggin was so stupid. but good has come of this. now htt i have failed my exhibition horribly, i can start new and i know why i need to do my work. i need to take it a day at a time. i can do it, but i need to learn how to set a goal and acheive it, liek rigfht now i woke up this morning and said, i am going to get my dear charly letter done and my post exhibition journal entry done, and i did, so i have found something that might work for me.