journal entry #69

dude, i am really bored. i think i am going to go to bed soon, but i cannot stop thinking about my social life and what the hell i am going to do. too much to think of. my work, all o fthis , it as alot on my plate. i am not stressed, but i think that there is nothing more i can fit. i think i am lonely. i feel like i need somebody to hold. i miss the excitement so goddamn much, i want it so bad. i miss just holding somebody in my arms, i miss being able to trust someone with my secrets and everytthing i am. i miss all o fthat. i want it, and i think i a m looking for it in all of the wrong places. but i need somebody, i really do. i feel liek crap because i cannot find anybody, and i dont think that i am going to anytime soon. i hope i can really soon, though. i want somebody so bad, i want to feel wanted also. lately, i have been feeling insecure for the last few days. and i am losing my concentration, so mty owrds dont make sense. i want a girlfriend, i really do. i am watching a special on bologna and it is pretty darned cool. bologna is made from ground up sausage. did you know thatr? and it is also made from lean steak, did you know that, i thought it was pretty cool. oh yeah, and that insecurity stuff too, dont forget about that.