journal entry #68

hey guys, i am sorry that i havent talked to you guys for a long time. i have been having too much fun. i connot wait until i school. i am really really bored. i do not want to do this. i am watching a law and order in which a guy killed his sister because she had sex with another man that wasnt arranged for marriage. it is sick and heinous. i cant believe that things like that can actually happen in this world. i just think that killing humans is sick in any way that you can think it, besides self-defense. id kill someone in a second if they were coming at me with a knife. i am bored. i need to get to school. i need a girlfriend, i am really really lonely. i wish i could have somebody to talk to at night. i wish i could have soembody to let me feel comfortable at night. i miss it so, so much. i am dying without it. i need somebody, i wna tsomebody so bad. i am lonely. well, right now i htink that i have found ea new girl thst i want. her name is erica. i met hwr at a concert, and now i cant stop thinking about her. at one time i dated her, and we didnt make it so well. she makes me feel so good, but that isnt the right word. she makes me feel passionate. i want to be with her. but there lies another problem. she is so chased by other men. apparently, she has a leigon of men after her. so wheat i have to do is either get away from her, or make myself different that every other guy, and i have put many plans into action. i kind of ignore but not so much, acting like i am interested, but i am not goign to wait around. i talk to her like she is normal, rather than a person who makes me fucking nuts, and when she asks about it, i am honest. that should make me a little different.