journal entry #67

hey guuys, another journal entry. i am severelybored to the max. i am waiting to call ariel and she doesnt really seem to want to talk to me. it kind of annoys me that she soesnt, and i think i am going to date her. i am getting closer and closer to the decision, i think i am not going to chickenshit for much more. the thing is i dont love her. but i think i should protect her as a friend from any other guy touching her. she doesnt know how to protect herself, so i am going to do it for her. but on the flip side, she deserves the attention of somebody who loves her. she truly does. so that is another reaoson that i am goign to date her. i want to fall in love. i miss it. i wan tthe thrill of it, and i also need to make out with something. not htat she is an object to me, i just cannot go on without any affecction of somebedy else, so i think i am going to date her. i miss romance, and i am going to try to make this work. i am going to see how it goes, and if we break up, or when we do, i think we can still be friends, she can be an understanding person at times and she hates for people to hate her or be angry at her. so if i screw her over, then she will be my friend anyways, so i am pretty much scotch free in this engagement. i am vurry, vurry burred, outie.